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Sunday, May 5, 2019

A sunny Sunday stroll with shrooms and science

Objective knowledge is only accomplished through subjective analysis of perception.
Obversely objective knowledge may be learned but is always subject to ones relative understanding.
Objectivity is derived only in the presence of substantiating qualia, or it's very definition being dictated by the subjective interpretation.

For instance, how the state of perceptional reality is forced to express itself as both a wave and a particle at the same time always and forever, leaving it to the observer to define via sensory input in terms formulated using the space-time construct (frequency and amplitude of electromagnetic resonance... vibration).

Or another example albeit less tangible but no less objective is gravitational force. No need to further elaborate.
In such terms, truth cannot be told only learned through subjective thought (meditation).

The profundity of this can be realized in that without this preconditioned state of consciousness we wouldn't be able to comprehend the difference between our feelings and the emotional response to the feeling.
Or expressed differently, we would not be cognizant of our mind adding to the biochemical-electromagnetic frequencies of emotions (which are states of electromagnetic BEING) via our feelings.
An example of this is experienced in that you don't have to be convinced of truth, truth is felt.

But some of us are too caught up in the love and acceptance rhetoric without ever stopping to really grasp what that means.

The issue lies with us becoming complacent with being 'participation award winners' that we never take the time to truly research and learn.
It was one of the most frustrating matters concerning actualization of self:
YOU CANNOT BE TOLD TRUTH, it must be realized.
We live in the information age yet we are some of the most conditionally ignorant and cognitively bias in the history of our species to ever walk the Earth.
How does that happen?
Well, in a world of instant gratification we are conditioned in a way that anyone who reads a fucking meme tends to think they have awakened their Kundalini.

We have to go beyond the 'warm n fuzzies' and take responsibility for our actions and the impact they have on our environment and each other.
Irony in being that every human (admittedly or not) acts completely out of self interest, yet is often conditioned to condemn this behavior from a moral or ethical standpoint.
Then we convolute this further by never stopping to think about the fact you have to have a fucking me before you ever start to think about we.
Just another way we insulate ourselves from personal accountability and responsibility.
You're not going to change others until you change yourself.
You're not going to be able to properly love another until you learn to love yourself.
Some people are just assholes.
And you'll just have to get over it and let that go.
Enlightened understanding comes with the understanding of where the me ends and we begin.
Possessing potential doesn't give you value.
We are all created equal but we are not equally valued.
The differences in individual value is in how we utilize our potential at any given moment and how others are able to capitalize on this value.

If we are not effectively utilizing our potential then our value output remains null, which is inefficient use of energy.
A heart not beating is as good as no heart at all.
When we acknowledge the value in ourselves we are then able to share that value with others and value others equally, beyond any conditional self-interested measures, as well as our interactions with environment and those in it.

Now what if someone were able to influence thought so deftly that they were able to manipulate the seemingly free thought of others into formulating the conceptual ideology of the influence(r) as their own?

And what if all the while that conceptual ideology remains totally unique to every individual and independent of origin?
Take a moment to understand what I'm trying to say there.
What if they were able to bestow insight that manifest the highest version of self?
Words can be more powerful than any weapon but are only given that power by the mind receiving them and only when interpreted in such a way that unlocks the understanding to which they point.
Is it they who spoke the words that manifest the value of potential that becomes expressed, or the thing expressing the potential through the act of actualization via realization?
Funny word.
Especially when we research it's etymology.
"I create, like the word."
Who created the word and from what was it created?
.... what is meant by "the word"?
It most definitely isn't the bible or the words in it.

How does mass migrational events happen within nature from larvae that were never shown or taught migrational behavior?
How do beta fish know that they must create oxygen bubbles for their eggs in order for them to survive long enough to hatch and that the bubble of oxygen is detrimental to it's survival post hatching? How does it know that the oxygen carries the essential energy required to manifest the life of it's young, based off mass?
How does a Monarch know to metamorphose? Or not only to fly thousands of miles to a particular area in Mexico but be able to return to the exact same spot, synchronized so precisely with all Monarchs in North America that they arrive simultaneously and so punctual as to coincide with Mexico's most spectacular celebration practiced for thousands of years 'Dia de los Muertos'?

As the proverbial saying goes you can only lead a horse to water, likewise one can be shown the way but it is they who decide to drink by free will alone.
The programming exists within us, we only have to become conscious of it.
We then will begin to understand the properties of light and what light truly is, in turn understanding our own light and not only who we are, but WHAT we are.

The light will draw you home.

Tuesday, December 4, 2018

Sanctity of self: A vision most surreal, that was sure real.

So while I was in LA this last week I took the opportunity to meet up with my friend Matt Finelli.
Matt is one of my more eclectic friends with an incredible energy about him that I've always found intriguing because it is rare.
I've only felt this type of energy less than a handful of times in my life.
Similar in a way to my own, but with a much more compassionate resonance.
Included among his many travels in life are treks into the Amazonian jungle mountains of Peru to live with and study Peruvian shamans and their shamanic rituals.
Something I too wish to do in the near future with him.

While visiting with him he suggested we do a meditation to which I quickly agreed, always eager to explore these opportunities.

I went into this experience not knowing what to expect, but with an open mind.
Since I don't have much experience in meditation I was a bit more mentally reserved than I would have liked to have been but nonetheless, it was the most intense experience I've ever had.
We began by sitting before his Pachakuti fashioned Mesa and saying a prayer for the spirits of the universe to guide our journey and bless the meditation session.
We then projected our intent into a cannabis cigarette for what we wished to achieve with the meditation session.
I got hung up on this because I wanted to go into it open, with no intent other than to be shown whatever the universe wished to tell me. Little did I know, it heard my intent.
We lit the joint, took a couple puffs then put it out and the session began...
Being a novice in meditation I was a little diffident but Matt expertly guided the process.

One of the first steps was concentrating the kinesthetic senses by way of holding objects, crystals in this case, especially for their energy and grounding.

Things started to get interesting quickly.
Their energy began to emerge through my touch. I could feel their energy interacting with mine. They seemed to become malleable in my hand. I could feel almost a shell-like energy around them and a softness in their core.

Next was concentrating the respiratory function and developing the steady rhythm of breathing required for the deeply relaxed state of meditation. Focusing on drawing deeply in through the nose, pausing, then an equally deep exhale through the mouth, pushing, until I had exhaled every iota of air possible.

Then concentrating the auditory functions, drawing out the details of sound and immersing myself in the various layers.
The rain outside the open window.
The Didgeridoo music playing.
Matt's voice and the icaros whistle he blew periodically.
Followed by concentrating on the proprioception functions of self to the environment via sound.
I was pleasantly surprised by his music choice as the Didgeridoo is one of my favorite instrumental sounds and it couldn't have been a better selection as it began to twist and distort things to where I didn't know if the music was changing, or my perception of it was warping to fit the surreal environment starting to emerge.
After taking in as much detail as possible of each sound happening, next was to locate where the sounds were coming from.
The music, the rain, and the strike of a meditation cymbal as well as the icaros whistle in different locations around me.
All of a sudden the sounds began to emerge as their physical objects.
Out of the blackness, they were like embers and sparks of fire.
This is when it began to get real trippy.
I could see his hand holding the cymbal while he was moving and tapping it.
I was so tripped out I had to open my eyes to confirm I wasn't hallucinating!
I couldn't help but laugh out loud when I opened my eyes and confirmed I was seeing my environment with my eyes closed.

While not focusing on any one sensory input in particular but being aware of all the sensory information I was experiencing altogether, he began having me focus on the body.

Focusing on concentrating the body into a relaxed state by tuning it with the harmony of this crazy psychedelic environment around me.

By doing this he was able to help draw my awareness to the body.

He had me imagine a white cleansing light as I drew in my breath and then attached the inhalation of that energy to the area of my body I felt was the strongest.
Immediately I felt my heart open up, drawing in the white cleansing light energy.

Then on exhale I would exhale any tension, stress, negative energy and discomfort while channeling the renewing energy from the light in and through until all that was left was a pure white clean energy.

He then had me focus on channeling the strength and positivity of that pure light energy to the area of my body that needed it and I immediately felt it flood into my abdomen and hands.

My mind interpreted this as letting go and allowing me to live my truth. My gut representing self-instinct and my hands representing what I do in this world and in this life.

What I put into it.
The work that I do.
My actions both physical, mental and emotional.

Next was embodying my totem. Immediately a falcon began to emerge of black obsidian perched upon a granite-like rock.

It then broke free and took flight just as the question formed in my mind as to why my totem was the falcon.
It was showing me.
It morphed into myself as a half falcon, half human with wings as arms.
It signified the great heights I could achieve if I stayed balanced and level, but then it flew up and toward the sun. The feathers caught fire and the story of Icarus came forth.
The idea came that I can do great things with my potential but I must be mindful as to not become overzealous in change and growth, or prematurely overestimate my capabilities during this journey.
The delineation that even a God cannot become God.
Also, the energy I put into the world could become my downfall without remaining present and centered with self.

I saw the immense power I (we) are able to weld. That we can do anything with that power that we choose, good or bad.

The power is limitless and literally, the universal power of all potential flows through each one of us. We are the universe manifesting itself.
A conduit from which all potential flows.
We can create and destroy worlds.
We must be conscious of this in that it is up to us to use our powers for good and put forth positivity into the universe.
We can become anything we wish and we are timeless. 
Shapeless, changing form at will.
And, like the molting of a snake, we will molt our human body and continue on, into the next evolution of our being.
And just as I was witnessing this he placed a crystal on my forehead over my third eye and it was like a blast of lightning, plugging into a conduit of pure white electrical energy, yet cool and tempered.
I was connected to every thing and every one.
Out of the darkness beyond the surging power of light strode a figure.
It was me.
And I then had to face myself.
The things I see as flaws with self.
My darkness.
I felt guilt.
As I approached myself the darkness faded and my higher-self stood before me. A being of pure white light in my own human form.
A testament that I am a being of light, free from darkness and that despite there being darkness in my past, I can (and have) shed that darkness and evolved beyond it.
That deep down my heart is pure and filled with love.
We stood there, forehead to forehead.
Love, compassion, and forgiveness exchanged from eye to eye.
I felt joy and happiness.
Most of all gratitude.
I thanked my higher-self for showing me my truth.

We smiled at each other and as we parted I knew that the time and space separating us is an illusion of the mind, a mind trapped in a reality that only exists within the dimension of time and space.

Matt then began drawing me back to the present.

As I returned I was reminded that the powers exist beyond just the mind.
Matt was whistling the icaros and shaking a Chakapa prayer rattle around me and once again, I could see it and his hand holding it, as an orangish yellow light as if it and his hand were sparks from a fire.
I had to open my eyes a couple more times again to convince myself it was real. And laughed again as I confirmed I hadn't gone mad.
I could feel the connection of everything around me. Living and non-living.
And as I opened my eyes the final time the figurines within his Pachakuti Mesa were living entities before me.
The spirit guides.
And gradually they subsided and drew down until they were once again inanimate objects sitting in front of me..

.. and it was all over with.

Sunday, December 2, 2018


To be a God is to see time.
To elevate your vibration until it is so rapid that it is in sync with time.
Allowing you to stop, and see every detail of every second.
Every slow motion blink of an eye moment, in full definition.
Every photon of every particle's little blink of light into your consciousness.
From all senses.
This is the correlation of self, tuned to timelessness.

To see time transcends a single life cycle ad infinitum, or however many life cycle times that might have to be in order to be achieved.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

The truth is in our DNA. The poison is in our mind. The antidote is the light.

Awhile back I was asked for supporting material to back up the facts concerning my belief system.
So I then put together a chronological reference list to use as a road map to truth.
Then just yesterday I had a discussion with my mom who wanted reference material to validate my truth.
So here you are.

Each point mentioned below is important to have knowledge on in order to formulate the overall big picture in understanding of the subject material I've spent the last 20+ years meticulously researching.

The first portion of this are the points of interest with the corresponding time period it is applicable to.

The last portion of this is the pertinent information in regards to the specific branches of belief.

A fundamental thing to remember here is that truth has to be discovered before it can be told.
The truth lies at the end.. Good luck.

160000.bc-30000.bc - Mousterian Culture (Precedes Aterian, Emiran and Chatelperronian Cultures).
145000.bc-30000.bc - Aterian Culture (North African culture that is said to disappear until the emergence of the Iberomaurusian culture that appeared around 25000.bc until 10000.bc, and which is rumored to be the predecessor to the Caspian culture).
50000.bc-40000.bc - Emiran Culture. Associated with Neanderthals (Predecessor of Antelian Culture).
44500.bc-36000.bc - Chatelperronian Culture.
48000.bc - Bohunician Culture. Most likely the crossing of Neanderthals and EEMH's. Represents the split of Emiran and Ahmarian Cultures, one considered archaic Neanderthal and the other 'modern' man.
46000.bc-42000.bc - Ahmarian Culture. European Early Modern Humans aka Cro-Magnons (Predecessor to Aurignacian Culture).
43000.bc-28000.bc - Aurignacian Culture (Predecessor of Gravettian Culture. Worth noting they are most likely Neanderthal ancestors and big game hunters from the Levant yet associated with 'modern' man).
33000.bc-21000.bc - Gravettian Culture (Predecessor of Solutrean Culture. Known for their figurines).
32000.bc-12000.bc - Antelian Culture (Predecessor to Kebarian Culture. Interesting to note these are modern descendants of Neanderthals and are from the Levant. First generation 'hybrid mix' high likelihood).
22000.bc-17000.bc - Solutrean Culture (Predecessor to Magdalenian Culture).
18000.bc-15000.bc - Gandhara shows evidence of habitation of caves during the stone age.
18000.bc-12500.bc - Kebarian Culture (Predecessor to Natufian Culture who founded Jericho).
17000.bc-12000.bc - Magdalenian Culture (It is interesting to note that in their carvings/paintings it shows tropical fauna as well as a naked man suggesting warm weather or at least the memory of it. This is noteworthy because of the concurrent ice ages, with the last remaining for over 30,000 years).
15000.bc-8783.bc - Tell Qaramel has signs of human congregation (First city? Dates are almost contemporary to Gobekli Tepe).
12900.bc-11700.bc - Ahrensburg Culture (Predecessor to Swiderian Culture. Noted as using the first bow and arrow).
11000.bc-8200.bc Swiderian Culture (Predecessor to Kunda Culture).
10000.bc - Natufian hunter-gatherers congregate in what is to become Jericho during periods of mild weather, but due to cold and drought permanent occupation is prohibited.
9600.bc - Jericho founded (One of the oldest known cities in the world and dates back to almost the beginning of the holocene epoch. It is known as the city of palm trees)
9130.bc-7370.bc - Gobekli Tepe founded (Shows in-depth understanding of cosmology equivalent to that of Stonehenge).
8800.bc-7000.bc - Byblos founded (Has since been continuously inhabited since 5000.bc and is of Canaanite lineage).
8500.bc-5000.bc - Kunda Culture (Predecessor to Narva Culture).
7370.bc - Gobekli Tepe abandon (It is unknown as to why they backfilled the settlement).
7200.bc - Sang-i Chakmak becomes site of continuous settlement (Began by the early ancestors of the Jeitun Culture, which is predecessor to the Vedic Culture.)
7000.bc-3200.bc - Neolithic period.
6500.bc-3800.bc - Ubaid period. Relatively peaceful settlements as they lacked any walled system also some settlements with metal-working already a practice in some tribes. The knowledge is suspected of coming from the North via Natufian culture. The most intersting note here is the apparent decline in egalitarianism as farmers and chieftains begin to emerge as a social elite class, this became apparent in the burial graves of the dead.
6000.bc-5400.bc - Jeitun is established as a semi-permanent settlement area which is predecessor to Bactria–Margiana Archaeological Complex civilization aka Oxus civilization.
5500.bc - Samarra Culture emerges (Predecessor to Sumer civilization).
5500.bc - Samara Culture (Predecessor of Khvalynsk culture, this is extremly interesting due to the time and similarity in name to Samarra Culture, in that this culture is what produced the ancestors to the Vikings and is a considerable distance to the north by the Caspian Steppe. Also that both cultures develop technological advances to their respective areas).
5300.bc-1750.bc - Narva Culture (Predecessor to Corded Ware culture, most likely the natives to the land later taken over by them during or after the fragmentation of the Yamna Culture).
5000.bc-4500.bc - Khvalynsk Culture (Predecessor to Yamna culture).
4500.bc-1900.bc - Sumer civilization (Earliest known civilization. Non-semitic speaking people, whereas Akkadians were semitic speaking. They referred to themselves as 'The black headed people' and their land as 'The place of the Noble Lords'. Pre-dates Ancient Egypt and Indus Valley).
4500.bc - Gihon Spring settlement (What is later to become Jerusalem, a Canaanite city).
4000.bc-3100.bc - Uruk period. (Named after the Sumerian city Uruk, this saw the invention of writing and the first formation of cities and states).
3300.bc-2600.bc - Yamna culture (Predecessor to Corded Ware culture in the North and Poltavka culture in the East).
3200.bc-1050.bc - Cycladic culture (Predecessor to Minoan civilization).
3150.bc-2686.bc - Early Dynastic Period of Egypt.
2900.bc-2350.bc - Early Dynastic Period of Mesopotamia.
2900.bc-2350.bc - Corded Ware Culture (Predecessor to Andronovo culture, most likely shared Norse/Viking lineage).
2800.bc-550.bc - Elamite Empire.
2700.bc-2100.bc - Poltavka culture (Predecessor to Sintashta Culture).
2686.bc-2181.bc - Old Kingdom of Egypt (Age of the Pyramids).
2600.bc-1600.bc - Minoan civilization (Predecessor to Greek civilization).
2600.bc-1900.bc - Indus Valley Civilization (Predecessor to the Vedic culture).
2500.bc-1500bc. Kerma Kingdom (Sudan Empire absorbed into New Kingdom of Egypt, later).
2500.bc - Phoenicia founded (Canaanites and city of Carthage. Hebrews are descendants of canaanites who were an East Asian nomadic tribal society)
2500.bc-609.bc - Assyrian Empire (Part of the Akkadian empire then after its fall opposes the Babylonian empire to its south. The Assyrians follow the ancient Mesopotamian religion)
2334.bc-2154.bc - Akkadian Empire (Akkadian religion. First semitic speaking people. Babylon exists as part of this empire during it's rule as a religious and cultural center. Interesting to note that it retained Akkadian language for 'official' use, yet retained the Sumerian language for religious use as it was a Sumerian city. After its fall it splits into Assyrian Empire in the North and Babylonian Empire in the South. Sargon is most likely the origin of mythical Moses and as such would be the founder of the Judiac religion. This is reinforced by archeological evidence from this era that this was the origin of Mosaic law birthed from Noahide law, and which would later birth Judaic law.
2300.bc-1700bc - Bactria–Margiana Archaeological Complex civilization aka Oxus Civilization(Predecessor to Vedic culture and it is at this time that Vedic Sanskrit and Alvestan split).
2270.bc - Sumerians conquered by Akkadians.
2181.bc-2055.bc - First Intermediate Period of Egypt.
2135.bc-2055.bc - Gutian Dynasty of Sumer, previously part of the Akkandian Empire (Interesting to note that the Guti were described as being light skinned with blonde hair).
2100.bc-1800.bc - Sintashta Culture (Indo-Iranian aka Aryans or Rus. Predecessor to Andronovo Culture as well as both Vedic and Iranian cultures. Sanskrit, Alvestan).
2055.bc-1650.bc - Middle Kingdom of Egypt.
2000.bc-900.bc - Andronovo Culture.
1895.bc-539.bc - Babylonia Kingdom.
1800.bc - Avestan (Ancient Persian) and Vedic Sanskrit (Ancient Indian) diverge.
1750.bc-500.bc - Vedic religion shown to exist via Vedic Sanskrit aka Indo-Aryan/Indo-Iranian, Avestan and Old Persian (Later births Hinduism circa 500.bc)
1650.bc-1550.bc - Second Intermediate Period of Egypt.
1600.bc-500.bc - Gandhara Grave culture emerges during the Vedic period.
1600.bc-1100.bc - Mycenaean Greece civilization (Ancient Greeks).
1600.bc-1178.bc - Hittite Empire. Hittite language was the oldest Indo-European language. Rumored to be descendants of Caucasus Culture and Caspian Culture.
1550.bc-1070.bc - New Kingdom of Egypt.
1550.bc - Considerable decrease in Minoan civilization.
1500.bc-1100.bc - Vedic Culture emerges (Births śramaṇa movements like Jainism and Buddhism and communicated via Sanskrit. Vedic Puru tribe was defeated by Kuru Kingdom).
1500.bc-500.bc - Yaz culture (Births Zoroastrianism and communicated via Old Avestan).
1500.bc-535.bc - Gandhara Kingdom
1200.bc-550.bc - Kuru Kingdom (Merging of Vedic Bharata and Puru tribes. Rigveda written by the Kuru which is comprised of ancient beliefs dating back beyond 1700.bc and believed to have originated from the Gandhara Grave culture).
1050.bc-930.bc - Kingdom of Israel begins to form as a united monarchy.
930.bc-720.bc - Kingdom of Israel.
753.bc - Rome founded.
624.bc-546.bc - Thales's lifetime.
570.bc-495.bc - Pythagoras's lifetime. (Themistoclea, a priestess from Delphi, is credited with being his teacher. Yet she is literally unknown outside of the fact that confirmation from other's during that time period confirm her as a real person).
563.bc-400.bc - Buddha's lifetime (not sure exact dates between this time)
539.bc - Fall of Babylon.
535.bc-475.bc - Heraclitus's lifetime.
490.bc - Persian war with Greeks.
470.bc-399.bc - Socrates's lifetime
450.bc - Tanakh compiled (Torah/Nevi'im/Ketuvim)
428.bc-327.bc - Plato's lifetime.
384.bc-322.bc - Aristotle's lifetime.
338.bc - King Philip of Macedon defeats the Greek city states, ushering in the Hellenization of Greece.
325.bc-270.bc - Euclid's lifetime.
305.bc-30.bc - Ptolemaic Kingdom (Source of the Septuagint via Ptolemy II)
167.bc-73.ad - Pharisaic Judaism (Rabbinic) diverges from Sadducaic Judaism (Hellenistic)
146.bc - Greece falls to Romans
146.bc-31.bc - Conquests of Rome as Alexander the Great finalizes Hellenization.

80.bc-15.bc - Vitruvius's lifetime.
Julian/Gregorian Calendar place 1.ad as beginning of current calender time but was not devised until 525.ad by Dionysius Exiguus and not widely used until after 800.ad
200.ad - Mishna (Rabbinic Judaism's Oral Torah aka pt.1 of the Talmud).
335.ad - Nicene Creed written out. 381.ad amended at First Council of Constantinople.
300.ad-350.ad - Jerusalem Gemara compiled becoming the Jerusalem Talmud.
330.ad - Constantinople founded. Becomes capital of Eastern Roman Empire (Byzantine Greeks).
450.ad-500.ad - Babylonian Gemara compiled becoming the Babylonian Talmud.
570.ad-632.ad - Mohammad's lifetime, Islam formed. (Quran compiled between 609.ad-632.ad and is actually a collection of writings from various scholars rather than solely from the individual it's attributed to).

Onto religious relevance of chronology and history given above:
Hebrew/Judaic - Tanakh (Technical origin of all Catholic & Christian Bibles. It is important to note that it was contrived by Masoretes that spoke differing forms of Hebrew, as such it was translated in differing contextual vernacular using Tiberian Hebrew of which the Masoretic texts were written, and is a combining of both the Babylonian Hebrew form and the Palestinian Hebrew of Jerusalem.
Greek - Septuagint/Pentateuch later on to Christians (Greek translation of Tanakh and various spiritual manuscripts of the extended territories and their subjects, later collectively termed Apocrypha.
IE: The Masoretic Texts and other Aramaic/Hebrew/Greek codices)
Roman Empire (West) - Vulgate (Latin translation of the Septuagint. The final source used for the basis of all Catholic/Christian interpretations of the bible)
Roman Empire (East)/Eastern(Greek) Orthodox[c.500AD on] - Variation based off Septuagint along with Patriarchal text and the Gospels including Trinitarian belief. (This becomes the religion of New Rome/Constantinople which succeeds the Holy Roman Empire of the East, also known as the Byzantine Empire. As such it is adopted as the supreme Religion of the Empire and reverses the anti-Christian stance held by the Western Roman Empire, and ends persecution of Christians.
Christians - Angelican/Episcopal that derived the King James Version (Church of England)
The closest living faiths to that of the original belief system that birthed the Judaic faith. It can be traced back to the cradle of modern humankind which is inaccurately placed as originating in the fertile crescent, with its beliefs being carried East, as its people migrated into Asia/India. It remains the most unmolested, unlike that of the Judaic faith that existed in the west which suffered major contamination of impurities and disinformation due to the accelerated proliferation of civilization in the east, along with the correlative political sabotage.
It is the belief system taught by the enlightened IE: Buddha, Jesus, Confucius etc.
Starting with the Neolithic origin >8000BC and progressing thru to the modern lineage:
And finally....
Abrahamist religions:
From 130-350AD the Old Latin manuscripts that form the New Testament are written and the Roman Catholic Church eventually is established as the defacto governing religion of the Holy Roman Empire, with the Vulgate ('Main Latin' or 'Commonly Used') being translated into Modern Latin from these later on in the 4th century (300-400AD) by St Jerome (who stated that much of the Septuagint was conjured from Apocrypha [Deuteronomical manuscripts added to the tankha for life and manners but not for doctrine and is where Christian sects such as Methodist and Mormons get their supplemental teachings] and as such not in the original Hebrew works, although this fact is ignored by history as they are all still mostly included in the Vulgate as part of the original Hebrew). As a note to how broad the translations were before this, there are 27 variances of the passage from Luke 24:4-5 alone, and that number is only the surviving ones that there is still record of.
The old Latin manuscripts used to write the Vulgate in turn were translated from and written using the Septuagint (Latin, meaning 'the 70' referring to the 70 Jewish interpretters that translated and wrote the Septuagint in old Latin from the Greek translation of the Hebrew bible Tankha [5 books of Moses aka Torah or also known as the Pentateuch by Christians] which means the law)
The Torah was written in the 6th century BCE (600-500BCE) from a broad collection of ancient Judaic manuscripts dating back to the time of 1000BCE, possibly even earlier, but most were written later than that (800-600BC). It is believed that all of these manuscripts came from 4 different sources, abbreviated JDEP, which contributed their pieces which were influenced by the political and socioeconomic events during their times respectively.
After the fall of the Roman Republic a split produced a Roman Empire of two parts that mostly coexisted as one (this is also when the Catholic Church was established). The Latin, or Western Roman Empire widely regarded as the Holy Roman Empire (which is the source of Modern Catholicism) lasted into the 5th century, where as on the other side of the split, the Greek Eastern Roman Empire, known as the Byzantine empire lasts an additional 1000 years before falling to the Turks.
From its inception until the 3rd century the Roman Catholic Church served as the unofficial religious 'head of state' over the empire's subjects. During this time multi cultural religious beliefs were generally tolerated and allowed to continue overseeing their adherents.
With the gradual decline and destabilization of the empire this tolerance evaporated eventually leading to the official religion of the empire being made 'Christian' by establishing the Catholic Church as the supreme authority of religious affairs, in turn the micro-management of the populace by faith.
Interesting note: Aramaic was the originating language of the Judaic faith and also the native language of Jesus. Manichaeism was the prominent faith and contended with Christianity before it's eradication, although it continued to survive in the East (the epistle of Paul to the Greeks that formed the 10 commandments eluded to the 7 churches of the East as true, pointing the way to Eastern ideology which was rooted in Buddhist teaching)
From 300-425AD the Catholic Churchs ideology was formulated and subsequently it was established as the Roman empires reigning code of spirituality of the masses. This was a time of great instability and shoring up the Church was an attempt at wrenching down control over an ever growing rebellious empire rift with civil wars and internal conflicts. This brought about the split at the end of the 5th century that would give way to Angelicism, the establishment of the Church of England and later the Protestant Reformation which gave way to:
In 1545-65 the council of Trent took place which was a Catholic elite 'regrouping' to reorganize the catholic church and fortify it's positions of power while battling the Protestant Reformations attack on it.
The Vulgate is made their official bible at this time. After revision by the Church.
(Not so ironically the Shulchan Aruch is completed in 1563 by Joseph Karo and published in Venice. This consolidates the Judaic branches of faith and reinforces the consolidation of the Abrahamic religions cementing their liturgy and the character of Jesus in all branches)
∆ Protestant Reformation was power struggle between the Roman Catholic Church and 'the people'. Tyndale's translation set the ground work for nearly all English translations from Latin. It undermined the divinity of Roman elite priesthood and the necessity to lead or administer things such as mass, scripture and sacraments. Basically putting every man equal to the priesthood and it's purported devine apostle lineage. It gave way to the formation of the Angelican Church of England after the fall of the Western Roman Empire.
*Puritan - Offshoot from Church of England aimed at purifying the church from the influences of Catholism.
*Quaker - Offshoot of Church of England using the epistle of Paul to the Greeks that stated God resided in each individual.
Now you can see why I want to write a book for people. 

Dafuq you tryna say?

Lets do a little fantasy role playing.

Get that grin off your face, not that kind..

Let's imagine you're a passenger in a vehicle out for a Sunday cruise and you're having a conversation with the driver.

While you are puttzin' along the driver doesn't notice a stop sign ahead.

Using this scenario let me explain two types of people in our world that I will simply label person A and person B.

Scenario 1: You shout "Stop!"

Person A stops.

Person B has a puzzled look and replies with 'huh?'.
You dead.

Scenario 2: You shout "Stop sign!"

Person A stops.

Person B stops.

Person A obviously comprehended both simple commands and can logically deduce what is immediately implied without the irrelevant addition of the word 'sign'.

Person B needs the irrelevant addition of a single word in order to grasp the immediate implication of the command, your lives depend on it.

Yet, they are ignorantly unaware of the conditional necessity of it in their lives and do not understand that their understanding depends on the presence of an irrelevant word.

If they were more cognizant they would understand things the same without it.

Now, use the same scenario but reverse roles and put person B in the passenger seat.

Person B would undoubtedly use the unnecessary and irrelevant word because that is how they make full sense of the command and in-turn attribute it's inclusion to the immediate success of the command, ignorant to its meaningless and null necessity.

Despite this arguably harmless prerequisite, it invariably slows them down directly and you indirectly.

Should they learn to live life without it's inclusion they would become more fluid, more adept, more efficient.

And when the day comes when time is of the essence, more survivable.
And yes I am very specific in purpose using this ambiguous story.

Now... what the fuck am I talking about?

I'm talking about religion vs God and people's misconstrued concept of necessity through ignorance.
You do not need religion to know God and that by maintaining this false misconception, it will prevent you from ever really knowing God fully.

Listen cupcake.. We all want sprinkles.

There are those who think I can be a bit harsh when making a course correction point with someone.

And honestly I 110% agree, but I'm not overtly doing it to be a dick or to 'teach them a lesson' in a vindictive sense or to be brash.

I'm doing it in a pithy style for a specific purpose and this style most likely stems from my military background.
But it is succinct, efficient and gets the job done every time, all the time.

A problem with civilians is their lackadaisical laziness in accountability.

The intrinsic quality of human nature to make mistakes is exacerbated by the inane ideology that forgiveness, and the ability of rectification, are infinite.
This mode of thinking is counter-intuitive to the learning process which inculcates the logical 'cause and effect' modus operandi in an efficient adult.

Let me use the example of your mother telling you to be careful when passing a hot plate as a kid so-as-not to burn yourself.

Each day at dinner each week she tells you:

"Be careful, it's hot".

And yet inevitably at some point, you're going to forget and... "OUCH!!"

Following a good burn, you're not going to make that mistake again in being so lackadaisical, are you?

What was the difference?

You could've learned one way, by repetition, to be ever mindful of the hot plate.

But the other method worked instantly in hard wiring your brain to not be absent-minded when dealing with the hot plate.
The difference was the profound effect directly related to the cause.

If you make something so profound to someone the first time they make a mistake, you're likely to help prevent them from ever making that mistake again.

Now, I understand some of you are thinking:

"This isn't the military, being harsh isn't necessary".


That's fine too.
I understand being blunt can come off as indignant to some, and I could see a part of me being empathetic with these pussy-footer type.
They make tampons for that.

So once you're done sniveling, cork that shit, pull your panties up, and HTFU.

We all make mistakes, learn and move on.

Just don't develop the habit of being one of those people that make the mistake of being a mistake.

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Let's talk about 'dicts

Well, it's that time again kids..

Another installment of too many words from Nathan.

In this post I'm going to talk about addiction.

I have seen a lot of statuses concerning addiction, as well as the argument of whether or not it is a disease lately, so I'm going to take this opportunity to share my perspective.
Although I agree that addiction is the result of poor decision making and subsequently not taking responsibility for those decisions, as well as making excuses in order to indemnify oneself of that responsibility should one fail to rectify the behavior.
So yes, a choice.
With that being said.
By definition addiction, whether physical or mental, IS in fact a disease.
Just the same as depression (also a contended subject as to whether or not is a disease).

Why is there so much confusion and controversy?
Well it goes back to what a good majority of us define disease as.
When someone hears the word disease they most likely think of some infectious pathogen or bacteria.

Although those fall under the umbrella of disease yes, but the definition is much broader.
It's etymology comes from the French word desaise which literally means dis-ease, not at ease, or lack of ease.
It is the state of not being at ease that can drive a person to drink or do drugs.
It is because someone is in a state of depression that they can say they are in a state of dis ease.

Make more sense?
The definition literally is this:

A disorder of structure or function in a human, animal, or plant, especially one that produces specific signs or symptoms or that affects a specific location and is not simply a direct result of physical injury.
A particular quality, habit, or disposition regarded as adversely affecting a person or group of people.
synonyms: illness, sickness, ill health;

So just because we may interpret it in short form does not mean the definition is truncated to our understanding.
Without getting too carried away with the science and psychology of what causes addiction let's examine what addiction IS.
It boils down to the fact that, like depression, addiction is a disease of the mind that can be exacerbated by chemicals and/or hormones present in our system.
It is a complex dynamic of biochemistry, personality, genetic predisposition, state of mind, thought processes, habitual thinking patterns and how we handle environmental and social stressors.

In other words, it is simply a repetitive behavior that is ultimately executed by choice that can morph into a neuro-chemical habit.
I think the area we have contention with is not the definition of disease but the context in which we interpret disease mixed with the anger and frustration we have with addicts and their infuriating ability to dodge accountability or responsibility for their actions and/or behavior.
Looking from the outside in, it's clear that an addict is their own worst enemy.
It is also incredibly frustrating to see someone self destruct while you helplessly sit on the side lines.

Trust me, I know.

I have lost many friends to addiction; one just last week, another a couple months ago and a very close friend in August, and that's just in the last 6 months.

I've been that friend pleading for them to get help.
Offered help.
Even offered to go with them to counseling and pay for it out of my pocket.
And the most frustrating of all is knowing the entire time that I can't do a damn fucking thing to help or stop them until they decide to do it for themselves.
When you say addiction isn't a disease you're belittling them on a deeper personal level.
It's like telling a person who suffers from chronic depression that they're only depressed because they choose to be.

You might as well tell them they are weak and gutless and have no self control and are worthless.
You're not telling them anything they don't think themselves already.
You are reinforcing the thought patterns and thinking that has manifested the addiction.
You're taking away the idea that even if they might not be strong enough, they can find the power to overcome beyond themselves.

For those who feel powerless it is this idea that bestows them with the power to overcome.
Don't rob them of possibly the only hope they have because you feel they are just making excuses.
Also something to think about:
We attack the things we dislike about ourselves.
Whether through the belief we exhibit it, or through the fear that we might or will.
I'm not talking specifically about addiction here, but the perceived weaknesses associated that lie beneath.
Think about that and let that thought stay your tongue next time you ever feel the urge to critique some one else.

You are a written program, here is the source code.

It was by no coincidence that I came to write this on the birthday of one of the very individuals who not only witnessed it's beginnin...